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101 days! I am getting so incredibly excited! A little nervous because my jobs haven't started yet but I'm having faith that it will all work out. I went to Crossroads to get baby books for Jacquline and I got this Rick Steves book for $5 bucks. I haven't been able to put it down since!

I'm so excited to grow and experience all these new things! I realized I'm going to get to cross some things off my bucket list: my first white Christmas, skating in an outdoor ice rink, and hopefully sitting on top of a completely deserted grass covered hill. Ooooh I can't wait!

Things are getting better with Wyatt. It's hard but I have to remember that we both have growing to do. He's trying really hard and he's been really responsive to me. It's hard but I know we can make it work. If it's meant to be, it'll be because we'll make it so. I'm committing to making the right decisions for me. And he's committed to make decisions to be my friend no matter what it takes. I think together, that should be enough for us. He really is something special and I want him in my life even though it hurts right now. I know first hand how hard it is to rebuild a relationship once the trust is broken but some things you just have to try for yourself. I've gotten better at that this year, living and letting others live. Thanks Maya ♥.

But I really could skip to July and be perfectly happy. I just want Tahoe so I can see everyone at the family reunion and Mikayla and Amelia. Then I'm pretty much down to go straight to Salzburg :D I'm ready to graduate from being a Baby 'Burger already!

As always, the Fray always knows what to say:

halfway around the world
lies the one thing that you want
buried in the ground, hundreds of miles down
first thing that arises in your mind while you awake
bending you til you break
let me hold you now

baby close your eyes
don't open til the morning light
baby don't forget
we haven't lost it all yet