Saturday, May 24, 2008

Last night

Yesterday was pretty emotional. Amazing and then scary. Those two have gone together a lot lately. And because of that creative urge that I talked about, I created this to express myself. It felt really, really good.

God, I've gotten so distracted today. First I reorganized all the pictures on my computer and now I'm categorizing all my photobucket pictures. I can't help myself...

Okay here it goes...

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spray paint peace sign on a peaceful blue abyss...

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my life in my head... natural, beautiful, clear yet abstract and biased, idealistic, all encircled in my brain.

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peace is what i crave. the ultimate ideal. it blends and fuses.

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i want positive things. to lend a helping hand. to clean the environment. to make the world beautiful. create. think. build.

but there are all these things keeping me from it, pressuring me, changing me. false, ugly, things. some things that appear good and sometimes are. forces pulling me in all directions. nothing is whole. so much is fake. untrue. but is it unreal?

i am being torn apart. stretched. altered. molded. censored.
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and it resulted in this:Photobucket

then...

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i want to be me. i want to be uncensored.

2 comments:

Jessica said...

That collage is way awesome :) I've been wanting to make a collage for the longest time but I've been in a creative block :(

Megan said...

it just kind of took me over. i grabbeda stack of magazines and saw a pair of legs on the cover of a benefit catalog and it just felt it out from there.